Best thing to do would be to change your password to something you won't remember and then come back when you're ready.

Nuh uh. Secondary accounts are not allowed. See rule 1 please.

if you care what people say about you, sorry but you cant be happy
sometimes you gotta learn how to ignore shit
no ones perfect, you should listen the good critisism but ignore some jerks that thinks they are the best at evrything

If I was part of that decision cause of your last topic, I apologize. That's not what I wanted. It was very obvious that your post was a joke, and different people laugh at different things. There is nothing wrong about that. I was one of the people whose humor is different than yours, and I thought I would use the joke to start a small discussion. I was not criticicing or mocking you, I just told my point. Of course, it's your decision and yours alone whether leaving the forum can help you, but I would try to calm down and think about it again. Everyone tells jokes sometimes where noone laughs. That might feel bad, but you can always try again.

who knows: I try to make everything posativ; but; not every peeple is posativ you know

See? I knew I was going to come back, against my better judgement, because again I’m an idiot and I do things that I know are going to stress me out. This is something I’ve always done. I don’t do this for attention, and I don’t do this to be cool. Like I said, usually if I get mad enough at the forum I will leave and you guys won’t even realize I’m gone, but I got mad and hurt enough that I have officially reached my break point. I knew people like posters eight and nine weren’t going to care in the least. All I try to do for people is help and make them happy, and it constantly gets thrown back in my face. Why do you think I want to be banned from here so bad? Also Targor, it’s not your fault, but somebody posted something in that topic that drove me over the edge and made me want to make this topic. I’m like a dog. It doesn’t matter how hard you kick me, I’ll keep coming back until you lock me out of the room. I can’t just change the password and be done with it, because for some stupid reason I can’t go through with it because there’s a huge part of me that still likes this forum and wants to keep coming back.

OK, I'm gonna lay something on you and I feel that it's important for your own well being to read this the whole way through. One of the worst things that you can do for yourself is rely on others for your own happiness. It just never works. When you're looking for others to validate you, you're giving them the power to build you up or tear you down.

What you want to do is find your own happiness. These are the things that bring you enjoyment. The parts of life that are real, and that give you long term sustainability.

A lot of people think making money and buying stuff all the time makes them happy. It doesn't! What it does do is gives them a pleasurable experience which doesn't last all that long. When they come down off of that, they need to buy more things to stay in that cycle. If they stopped, they'd realize how empty and lonely their lives were.

Why do you think that poor people can be so happy sometimes? They struggle day in and day out just to barely scrape by. They might have to even put one or two or three bills behind to pay for something, then try to play catch up. But, in all that, why is it that they can be so happy? It's surprisingly straightforward. See, in all that, what they do have are family and friends who love and care for them, and whom they love and care for. It may be cliché, but the simple things in life are often the best.

I like to think that happiness is like a pool. When you have a lot of it, you can spread it around to people near you and maybe lift them up a bit. But, when you don't have a lot of it, they can easily take what you do have; in effect, stealing it from you.

Now, let's say two people enter a serious relationship. I'll refer to them as A and B. if A is happy and B is not; B may rely on A for their own happiness. What this will do is slowly drain A over time, until A can no longer sustain their own happiness. Then, both people aren't happy. A is feeling drained, and might even be experiencing symptoms of depression and suicidal thoughts if they feel they can't get out of the relationship. B is more likely to try crazy things to make them happy, or may even lead to the relationship becoming toxic.

On the other hand, if A and B were both happy people before they entered into a relationship, things would pan out a bit differently. Let's say A had a really stressful week at work, leading up to some big important event. They will have to present tomorrow, but tonight, they're anxious, nervous, and maybe a bit afraid. This is where B could sort of lend A some happiness. Just through listening to what A has to say, perhaps looking through A's notes or outline, maybe giving A a massage, or even a more intimate sexual experience. Now A feels more uplifted and confident about their presentation, but this isn't the end of the story. You see, A will at some point in the future reciprocate. This is what a relationship should be. Two people who are in love with each other, who contribute not only to the household, but to the well being of each other and the relationship as a whole. But, this can only happen when you both are happy. If one is relying on the other one, it'll fail each and every time.
Now, moving on from that metaphor, let's look at how you (OP) can modify your expectations of others. The first step of this is to find everyone in your life whom you feel should be able to sway you, or whom you feel should have some influence over you. Once you've done that, everyone else doesn't really matter as much. you're basically rationing the power other people can have over you.

For instance, I don't tend to find your humor funny. I feel that it's kind of dry and lacking. I also believe that you try too hard in most things. That this very nature of yours that causes you to set impossible standards, and then push yourself until you can't anymore is causing your downfall.

I'm just one person though. So, when you're dealing with random internet people, you really have to decide whether or not you're going to let them affect you. In other words, suck it up, buttercup. Don't let one voice in a sea of possible voices set you down some self-destructive path. Though, if you see a bunch of people telling you the same thing, in a manner that seems to be constructive, then you might want to at least take a look at what they have to say. Whether you try to change your behavior at that point is still up to you, but a bunch of people saying the same thing aren't generally going to be wrong - unless of course you're talking about mob mentality.

What a topic.
It's difficult in these situations, because you can easily come across in what you are trying to say completely wrong. For example, someone might say: "Take a break." Which then is taken as "screw you" when what they meant was "It's going to be okay."

In any case, I digress slightly.
So, If you knew you were going to come back, you even knew how this post would be received, why did you post it?
I understand you were at the end of your emotional tether, ready to rip off and consume faces at the earliest opportunity, which is cool. that's something I can understand and respect. but surely it would have been easier to write this in a file?
That way you get to say exactly what you want to say, curse words included, and don't have to deal with any backlash you may get from posting it on the internet.

Another side note, if you want to say I'm leaving but coming back because I'm "insert what ever yu want to insult yourself with here", just say you're going on holiday.
Not only does it have better connotations, you'll probably not get any backlash at all. Finally, while on the topic of backlash, you  said you've disappeared without people noticing before. so why make them notice? If you want to avoid backlash, then avoid notice, surely?

I realise these are a lot of questions, and some people may be reading this without an ounce of empathy for the pointts I'm making, which is okay, but I want to also finish this post on a positive note, so hear goes:
I actually enjoyed battlezone, picked it up back in my early days of being on the forum, in fact. I never got past the level with the policecars, (sob) and the boulders freeked me out somewhat, but hey, it was a good game, with some good challenges.
I'll be honest and say I thought development was complete on it, as it seemed a well rounded, nicely planned, slightly humourous experience. All in all, I respected it. Sure it was a sidescrooler, but it was a good one, with time and effort, unlike 90 percent of the other crap that was on the market at the time, mine included!
My girl even played it, and got to level 13 I think? Beat me in any case.
So... I'm wondering more than anything, how you ade that without knowing how to code. You said you don't know how to code so... that's a pretty big achievement for someone without coding knowledge. to be fair it could be powered by a game engine, but whatever. My point is, you have already shown an ability to come up with ideas and put them into practice.
If you want to learn to program, there's nothing stopping you. If you want classes, ask a developer you'l ltrust. Most will teach you for a small fee, some may even do it for free. If not that, then look around on the web, it's a great place for learning languages, both programming, easy, and foreign languages.

More than anything, don't rely on others to punish your bad behaviour. It is not the moderators job to be your mom and dad, and put you on the naughty step because you can't control yourself. to be successful, you need to control, and be able to understand, yourself.
Simples.

You are not obligated to tell people that you are getting the fuck away from this mess.  Do what you have to do to get right before returning here.  Stick with those whom really know you, who care about you, with those who are really their for  you when you really need a homie, a friend, an amigo,--- you get my point.  oh, If you wanted to get banned you should have just promoted the killer, ultra power, or red spot copy beeing hosted else where.  Promoted the crap out of them.  That seems to have done the trick for some. hey you could have just asked a simple question as well about those programs. anyways

@Dan_Gero: I just read your other topic and think I know what happened here. In the age of the Internet, everyone feels the need to chime in and give their own opinions. It started with @2 from your other topic and everyone else just followed suit, effectively setting the mood of that topic to "What's the reason for posting this?"

Since @Simba did it, everyone just kind of added their own thoughts to it and eventually the point of the topic was completely lost among peoples' opinions about privacy-bashers, people competing to be even funnier than your OP was, etc.

It's one of the issues with the Internet: we can all impulsively post, and I bet 99% of us wouldn't say the things to each other in person that we say to each other online. Aggressive posts like @Simba allows him to get his anger out and onto you. He was probably in a bad mood when he read your topic and by setting the bait he allowed the rest of the fish to jump all over your OP.

I guess I might be the only one thinking that if someone requests a ban for their own well being, the least mods could do would at least be to reach out to them and set one up that would suit their needs. If they know they would benefit from a ban and also know they can't just go and scramble their password, then decide to request help with it... Why not help them instead of just telling them to either stay or just get better? I know bans have been given on Alter Aeon for similar reasons, at least in the past, and whilst it does seem a tad unusual, I reckon the idea is good.