Hi all.
I'm writing to let you know, that I'm leaving as a moderator, but continue to be here as a normal forum member.
I'll start by pointing out that my decision and timing have nothing to do with Liams choice. My choice was upcoming, where I tried to decide if I should stay as a moderator or not. It is not a hurry decision.
Some people might argument it was bad timing, which I kind of agree on. So, what tricked the timing for my decision? Mainly the way a lot of people have react here on the forum the last weekend, the way a passed moderator chose to attack an other current moderator, combined with a lot of things going on in my life at the moment.
Here are my reasons for my decision:
1. Some internal things in the moderator team. Things which shall not be discussed public. However, I have of course explained those things to the other moderators. Let me point out that I have nothing against any of the other moderators, not at all. I think they are nice persons.
2. I'm simply not good enough at English to catch all the times people are offending each other. I'm also not able to argument that much as required. My English is not good enough to keep argument the hell out of everything, which some members love to spend their time on doing.
3. Because of my big failure where I gave a wrong warning, I'm of course more careful on what I'm doing. Maybe too much careful. I'm afraid of making the same mistake again, and I don't want to have drama around me as a person, just because I'm trying to do my job.
No one is perfect, and maybe I'm expecting too much of myself, I don't know. I just feel that I can't live up to my own standards as a moderator.
4. It feels like the drama continues, no matter what people are doing.
I signed up to be a moderator in hope to make a difference in a positive and great way. But the drama has gone worse since then. Even when moderators are leaving the team, passed moderator are snapping at current moderators and bringing up old and passed topics.
It feels like no matter what I'm saying, people will have their right to be negative and cause drama. No problem with me. It just have to continue without me having to be responsible for keeping the forum a nice place to be. Some people don't want the forum a nice place to be, and I feel I'm waisting my time on constantly trying to figure out what's going on, and how to stop the drama once again.
I just feel that I'm sitting here, unable to make a difference, and unable to moderate the forum well without being backstabbed like others have been afterwards for just doing my job.
When I signed up to be a moderator, my intention was to drag the forum in a positive direction, and just to help where I can in a positive way. With all this negative drama going on, I just don't feel it's worth my time anymore to be a moderator. I have much better things and projects to spend my time on. People are getting what they are asking for: Drama and negative things all the time = People are leaving and spending their time on better things.
I'm simply burned out and drained for energy...
Having said all that, I have at leased giving it a try, which have result in some great and positive things in the moderator team. I'm glad I gave it a try, and at leased helped where I could.
I hope the best for the future of the forum. This is only going to happen, if that's what you want.
If people continue to make drama, trolling, argument the hell out of anything, then this forum is not going to last much longer. I'm just saying...
Feel free to contact me privately if you have something in mind. If you do so, then please send me a mail instead of using the private message on the forum, since I don't check those very often.
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