OK. Deep breath.
I totally get how it looks like a dictatorship. And thinking back on some of the crazy shit that's gone on on that game, hell I'd think the same thing as an outsider.
What the hell is wrong with this crazy game and it's crazy, stupid, insane, unstable flakey developer?
I'd never meant for the game, or anything for that matter, to get this far. What Alokin does on the game, I honestly don't know, because I'm honestly not around on the week days to figure that out. I have training at the center Iowa Department of the Blind here, so that takes up most of my time. I can only just hear it from others.
So ... Do I run my game like a dictatorship? i honestly try not to. Do I have anger issues? Yes. Do I let things get to me? Yes. Do I always take criticism well? No.
Should I moderate my own game? Maybe not.
See, here's the thing. I really, honestly do enjoy developing and coding and watching my ideas come out. And I love the environment that SBYW provides when it's at it's best. A calm, cool place to just build. Maybe if I just create an alias account for a while and play as a player and not a developer, and develop behind the scenes, it'll help. I think what really sets me off is coming online to my game and immediately getting blown up with Mason can you do this, Mason can you do that, etc, when most of the time I just want to come online and hang out.
Maybe I need to make some kind of report system of some kind, where people who want things checked on can send it to and the admins can look into it. Maybe I can then put myself in the position where I'm not always constantly under pressure or stress and then maybe I can really start to work on myself and getting my temper and issues under control.
I welcome any thoughts.
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