Sent what I could, Nocturnis. It's not a lot, but hopefully others can step up and help a little bit.

Everyone's in a tough spot right now - or rather, most of us are - and sometimes we make less-than-optimal choices. I'm not here to judge, and I won't stand by and let anyone else do it either, so no worries about that.
I really hope you manage to get enough together to cover your costs.

I don't have much, but I will send what ever I can and I hope that you get better, I know how it feels to have a very rough month and I hope others ccan help.

Thank you all so very much!  It's been only two or so hours since I posted on here, and I've already managed almost a hundred dollars from your generous donations.  Would you believe I actually had one person tell me I shouldn't bother because no one on this forum would be willing to step up to the plate?  Yeah, on top of already feeling ashamed of making this topic to begin with, I had people telling me I shouldn't even post.  Besides feeling thankful that I've managed thus far because of you, I'm also glad to be able to prove them wrong!
Need about a hundred more if I can get it, otherwise I think I'll try and see if I can find someone who buys used/broken laptops or something of that nature... I have an HP probook who's only real issue is actually a useless battery and a weird issue with the soundcard, where it would rather have earphones/speakers connected to it for some reason or another... I don't know why.  I'm seriously working on this stuff though... I see advertisements for things like covid research testing, where you basically go and get jabbed with a needle to test vaccines and the like and get paid to do it.  NO what the problem is?  You risk dying!  That's a warning I saw along with the advert!  I don't mind trying, but dying is not exactly on my todo list at the moment as I do have four children to take care of, which I imagine dying would make a bit hard to do?  I'm just guessing though... I wouldn't know... I have never died.
My immediate reaction when reading that advert though was a resounding "Yeah, I'll do it!"  My wife thought I'd gone mad!  I told her I'd do it and my les than logical reasoning was that "I'm healthier than you are at present, so the risk is less for me than for you."  I think my overall thinking was kind of along the lines of, well, as screwy as the situation is at present, things really can't get any worse than dying, so live and let live?  Yeah, that's where I am right now.  I'm not even sure if I'm making any sense...  I'm just trying to hold it together one breath at a time and keep my cool in the process.

Also done. Hope it helps.
Edit: Actually read the second part of post 7 rather than skim reading it like I did before as by that point I was set on helping anyway and I would just like to say I'm with your wife on this one.
So even more now I really hope it helps

I've never had that happen but it sounds horrible.  I certainly hope you can turn this thing around.

It takes massive balls to come on here and lay aside your pride for the betterment of your children. My already insanely high respect for you at least just tripled

I have a lot to say to everyone here, but first, @keyIsFull, 14, I do believe the [email protected] account is set up as such with Apple.  Before you attempt to find out, however...
I just want to thank everyone who contributed and say that my goal has been achieved; indeed my goal has been surpassed.  Not only did I manage to break even, but by almost a hundred dollars added a bit of cushion which I can genuinely say was not entirely my intention but something I am more than thankful for, but which I believe our current dictionaries do not necessarily have a word I can utilize to describe said feeling?  Well, thanks will have to do.  I slept well last night, which is a far cry from what I have been doing.  I hope that will help convey my sentiment a little more accurately.
So yes, this tale has a happy ending, a happy ending you all have helped me achieve as a community.  That, is the point I want to focus on in conclusion.  It is clear by this meaningful and generous contribution to one of the least of your members that your community is still functioning, whatever anyone else may say about it.  AG Net is not dead.  It may be kicking viciously to stay alive, screaming and pulling teeth in an attempt to protect itself and preserve its integrity, but it is still awake in spirit and collectively a force, as anyone who is reading this post can clearly see.
Why do I believe this is worth mentioning?  Because I want this to serve as a reminder that every single one of you has made a difference and can continue to do so.  When next you see a topic where you might disagree with someone, when next you read a post that seems to set you off, when next you chance upon a bit of writing that does not necessarily resonate with your own thoughts and opinions, might I, in all humility and with all respect to each and every one of you, ask that you regard the person responsible for that content the way you did me?  You could have easily judged me and said I was just making this up for some shady reason; you did not.  You could have told me to take a hike; you did not.  You could have legitimately told me that the rest of the world is experiencing difficulties and some worse than my own, and you would have been right in saying so.  You did not.
And I apreciate all of these things.  I appreciate that there is a topic with my name in the very first post, as personally humiliating as the experience may have been for me in writing it, that did not derail into name calling or insults, into negativity and counterproductive, vapid, useless and harmful discourse.  Again, I ask you all of these things not because I feel justified to ask... I don't.  I ask all of these things of you as a simple request because I believe in you, and if you believe anything I've stated thus far, you should also believe in yourselves, in the ability to help, in the ability to bring about a change in someone else's life when things seem like they're spinning out of control.  It's true that overdrafting wouldn't have been the worst thing that could have happened to me this month.  It's true that I might yet have found another way to turn this thing around without seeking you all out.  It's true that if you had all said no I would have been left on my own to fend for myself and my family to keep on trying to figure it out because I would have had no choice.
But that's not how it happened.  In hope, I came here.  You stepped in.  You came through.  You committed yourselves as a collective body to assist someone you trusted enough to need it and who you believed would appreciate the gesture... I do, and it is that apreciation that makes me want to pass that glowing warmth onto someone else if I can.  I want you to remember that you were a part of the solution.  I've seen how crazy things can get when you're taxed by late fees, overdraft fees and disasters.  I've had to ride out hurricanes, fires, floods and other unfortunate incidents.  I've been cheated out of things, been lied to priar to signing things, been forced to concede to others who are doing wrong even when I'm doing my best to be right.  I'm here today to thank you all for helping me, and to hopefully motivate you to continue doing what you've done so that someone else may benefit as well.  Do it in words; do it in actions.  Do it by day or by night.  Do it because you are able, but do it because it's the right thing to do, even if you don't always see the result you'd like.

Missed my chance, but it's okay, it will just go to someone else who needs it still.

I hope you and your wife keep punching life in the dick when ever possible Nocturnus.

And high fives to everyone who donated or wanted to donate but couldn't, for keeping this community positive despite it all.

As I said, I'm not here to judge, particularly not for stuff like this. Capitalism sucks, so I'll judge capitalism instead. lol

I had a chat a few years ago with a family member. I was railing against something or other on facebook, and they basically said, "okay, that's cool and all, but what are you actually doing in the world?". Three years later, I'm a social service worker looking for work. I don't have much money at all right now, but I had enough to toss you a bit. I'm willing to give freely of my time and experience to help this community and others. I don't do it for the power or the accolades. I do it because it's the right thing to do, and because I truly feel I can make a difference. Nocturnis, your post resonated with me because that mentality is precisely why I'm here. I'm trying to affect meaningful change, and to help others do the same. Even when I get angry, even when I call out things I find abhorrent, I'm still here for the right reasons, trying to act properly to both embody and inspire positive change. Do I do it? Hell, I don't know, but I try.

If you ever need to talk or need some other sort of help, please don't hesitate to reach out. Seriously, we (as a society I mean) have gotten to a point where we demonize ourselves for needing aid, and I think that's sad as hell. Sometimes we screw up. Sometimes we make decisions that make sense at the time and then turn out to be problematic later. And sometimes, life is just awful, and there's no way to predict or control what has happened. All this shame about asking for help is something I wish people - self included, believe me - could rid ourselves of. So by all means, continue being you. Continue being vulnerable. I suspect that honesty means more than perfection. When you get down to it, the best people I've ever known will value an honest plea for help far more than the appearance of blamelessness or the illusion of uninterrupted progress. Put another way, I don't think good people make a habit out of blaming people in positions like yours, and I don't think someone who does do such a thing is really all that good a person. If this thread is any indication, most of the people here are good folks who have the right idea about the things that truly matter. If they (or we, if you like) sometimes squabble about our differences or hold fast to ideas, if we sometimes tear one another's ideas down, we also rally around those who truly need help when it counts.

I have been in a similar position as you back in early 2017. Most of it involved food security issues and access to reliable transportation. I got out credit cards to survive and also entered a vicious circle of what I had was obliged to pay each month. Fortunately, I continued looking for things to sell and pawn, and I accumulated enough funds to get out of debt quickly.
I'm currently working and can afford to donate a small amount if you still need it!

Best of luck