Hi guys.
I'm going to jump strait to the point in this post. I would like to know how to turn my life around. Over the span of my entire existence I've allowed my anger to take control of me and as a result I have burned tuns of bridges and ruined potential friendships. I haven't just burned bridges as a result of my anger though, it's been a mix of other things as well. I thought I've progressed past the person I was back towards the beginning of this decade, but I can see a lot of things about me haven't changed and in some ways, I've actually gotten worse. I want to be the kind of person who is a friend to everyone, and I'd like to say that's always been like me to think that way, but I've done a crummy job of making that happen. As if this weren't enough, I treat myself way worse than I treat everyone else around me. My eating decisions are poor and I hardly ever exercise. My deteriorating health is like a deep dark slippery well, and for every day I climb 3 feet I slip another 4. I have gone on a chocolate free diet for several months because I just knew that if I ate one chocolate bar, that would turn into two, then three, then four, and before you know it the entire bag of chocolate will be gone. And guess what? That almost happened today! My parents and I went out to dinner for Halloween, then went to Walmart and got a mixed bag of treats, among other things. That night I had one of each kind of chocolate in that bag which was peanut butter cups, almond joy, kit-cats, and Hershey's. Anyway, today Mom asked if I wanted her to bring the hole bag in and I said sure. I decided to have some chocolate, and sure enough almost half of the bag is gone, and this is a huge bag.
I'm not saying all of this to receive pity, because I do not like pity one bit. I'm saying all this because I'd like to know what to do. I know I shouldn't delete all of my social media accounts and my forum account and just spend the rest of my then to be short life overdoing chocolate and cheezits until my heart gives out, but right now despite the fact that it's not, it feels like the only option left. I know this is do to lack of self confidence, but how would you gain something like that if you don't have it to begin with?
All of my socials and content platforms can be found on my website (not ready yet).