@36 agree totally. And, if it were, no amount of supervision, suicide watch would matter, they could have 12 guys on me at all times 24/7 and if I wanted to do it, it'd be done. I wouldn't even use a weapon, I'd just will my heart to stop and it would be done. Don't believe me, you should, I'm one stubborn ass sumbitch, and I'm not even kidding, I would 100% die right in front of people if they moved me to it.
For me though, there is always a reason to live. That reason is all around e, the birds, the grass, the trees and flowers. All the things that make up the natural beauty of this place. No amount of darkness can take that away. No amount of us fucking shit up can take that away. While I believe we definitely can, could, and are destroying this planet, until the last blade of grass has been scorched, until the last tree falls, until the last flower withers up and dies, this planet will hold all the beauty you could ever want. All you have to do is go embrace it.
I think too much time in the city can be problematic, you get so acclimated to the hustle and bustle that is every day life. You can never find your center in a city, but you can find it in nature, and follow it to there from your home in your city. All you have to do is renew the bond every once in a while, and its not hard, just be around trees, birds, bees. Just sit and listen and let the world cleanse your mind and heal your spirit. Currents take all your troubles away, at least for a short time, but when it does come time to face them, you now have a renewed sense of purpose, a vigor, a zest for life and for living, and then you will be ready for whatever comes your way.
The bipeds think this place belongs to them, how cute.