So this is just a draft post for FB that I put up on the site then took down.
A little back storie so I finely took a chance and asked this girl out that I new from my high school well of course I get the same "I'm not searching for a relationship." Well than what are you searching for. It sounded veg. I just was asking if I could take her out to dinner. I don't really consider that a date and I wasn't asking to jump in head first right away. Now I have read many articles on the subject and does it have something to do with sexuality? She is a christian girl and I'm a christian as well. So After that happened that is what prompted me to write this post. Someone said it was good that I was letting out my pent up anger. Have you ever had pent up anger that you just wanted to release in the form of a long text post rant? Well hear is the post enough of my rambling. Please don't mind the swear words.
I'm thinking about changing the show. Because my ideas are not wanted hear and you don't know how many times I have been rejected and I have tryed to reach out to people. Because people tell me to reach out to people and I did and I always get rejected or they leave. It really hurts me. It makes me have trust ishues. I'm not into the partying or one night stands. And I don't understand why girls just can't tell the truth instead of saying its personal or I'm not searching. Do you know how frustrating that is. Why do you think people are so confused on relationships. There are good guys but the fucking bad ones screw it up for the rest of us. Sorry for ranting but that is how I feel. Do you understand what I'm saying I just want to be treated like everyone else. I want to have a social life but I never got that. And what am I doing? I'm sitting hear doing nothing with a GED that I spent 100 dollars on and took two weeks to get. And I'm afraid of going to college because I don't want to pay out of the ass and get a 4 year degree then get out of school and maybe not find a job and pay damn college debt for the rest of my life. I'm not mad at any one person and its not there fault this is many people over time. Are fucking generation is screwed up in many ways. We don't know how to tell the truth. We don't know how to take responcability for things. We want everything and don't want to work for it. Sorry for ranting. She seamed like a nice girl and that is why I asked her out. Does this have something to do with the femanist movement I am asking my self all types of questions. Why people in are generation are not open to commitment or relationships like other generations used to do. Please lord I hope I'm not losing my mind.
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