Greetings all.
After a week and a day, I can now tell you all what my last post was about. I fell in love with Christine, a truly mild and meek soul who works in neighbourly care but I did not have the courage to speak plainly so I spoke in verse instead. That’s what I do when afraid to tell someone I love them and my first post was asking Mother Goddess what to do about it; I also asked her for courage to speak my mind when next Christine and I met. Believe it or not, I tried telling her in Wolpole park in Ealing last week. Yes I did refer to Cupid and his arrows of love but I can't remember whether or not I referred to it while speaking to her in verse. I do know I referred to it when writing to Mother God about Christine but I'm almost certain I mentioned it to Christine to. The sacred touch refers to the love and pleasure felt when you touch the one you love and or when they touch you; even a touch of one hand to another. Anyway, yesterday I did it; I told her how I felt and how afraid I was to say it due to an irrational fear of something going terribly wrong. As it were, my thoughts and emotions ran away with me but Christine put me at ease. Christine, the one who also guided me in the park and who always serves us tea and soup said that at this time, she has no time for a romantic relationship but that’s okay because she knows that if I don’t find anyone in the years to come and she’s not so driven by her work, then we could have a chance. Do I want to look for another? No, not really but my divination tells me that our futures don’t lye together. I’ve been trying to find a way around it but I know ultimately that God speaks true. I also know that as much as I don’t want to follow what my divination tells me at this time, I will anyway because I trust Mother God that in love, nothing is ever lost.
Here’s a poem Saint Sister Clemencia Barns wrote for all. You can find it at http://www.the-testament-of-truth.co.uk then go to the testament of truth, clemency and other inspirational letters. This poem deals not only with romantic love but with all love and people in general and it certainly put my unrequited love into a new light. I’m definitely not saying Christine did anything unkind because she’s while perhaps not a light being yet, she is certainly of the light and she doesn’t have far to go before she becomes free of all darkness and becomes a light being. No, anyone I have in the future will be less than kind and that’s when I must be loving, peaceful, forgiving, merciful and compassionate at all times no matter what anyone does to me because I know that what so ever I did/do will be done unto me; that’s the law of karma. I must never retaliate in the face of adversity and only give good counsel. If the other or others are too far gone AKA cannot hear what I say, then I let God do what he must but I either say and do nothing at all or remain respectful at all times no matter what.
Kind regards, Amin Abdullah.
The courage of Love by Clemencia Barnes.
To love the very lovely - the people filled with grace
To see the light there shining - and feel their sweet embrace
To love the fair of temperament - so gracious, full of charm
To love these souls is easy - for they wrap us in light’s balm
But what of those less gracious - the ones who throw their darts
Who take the love we give them - and hurl it at our hearts?
Who point with unerring accuracy - at wrongs that we have done
And make us suffer deeply - so the course of truth is won
These too are souls of beauty - as the courage of love does know
For what they make us feel - is only what we ourselves did sow
So never strongly justify - that it is they who do the wrong
For then you and your beloved - sing the Dark ones song
And would you break now free - from the curse of that refrain
That same old dirge of sorrow singing - ‘‘love is only pain’’?
Than embrace the one who wounds you - and turn the other cheek
For the wound they may inflict - you inflicted when not yet meek
Yes know that suffering you feel - is never felt by you in vain
All emotions you experience - are experienced because you caused pain
And the courage of love is simple - if this truth you can uphold
That any emotional onslaught - is the truth of the past now told
When you were an arrogant avenger - who put the other right
Believing in retribution - for injustices in your sight
And the times that you sought vengeance - for all or any wrong
Are the times now to you returning - by others who sing your past song
But now as you feel the onslaught - of past deeds that caused unease
Walk in gentle silence - forgiveness will bring your release
To love with silent courage - as words around you break
Is to break the spell of darkness - that you within did take
Walk now in loves courage - and clothe each soul with respect
For each soul is a spark of light - that God insists we protect
And though that light is shrouded - by deeds that make light dim
The courage of Love will see that light - and not the actions grim
Go your way in happiness - let happiness be your song
Walking in the light - which has taught you right from wrong
As you boldly now proclaim - you be no more in the Dark’s employ
Let feel your heart now flowing - with the river of God’s joy.