This might be a mini biography, so, if you want to continue listening, do what ever you do, before diving into a leasure reading binge, as far as snacks and a drink. I hope you all enjoy this. So,when I was about 2 years old, I began to love toys that made sound, and looked realistic, due to the fact that I lacked the ability to see what was around me. I also liked to watch videos about different types of vehicles, and the experiences that people had with them. There was a series that I watched, which I can not recall the name, in which two characters named Dave and Becky explored things such as truck driving, being a police officer, being involved with different types of boats, participating in the opperation of big trucks such as toe trucks, garbage trucks, and monster trucks. They also explored so many other types of vehicles. Those shows set the roots to my obsession with getting accurate and reasonable facts about everything, which made me have the urge to speak against anyone, reguardless of whether they were of authority. That still is one of my troubles that lives with me, today. Before I started watching those shows, just like any other kid, I watched Barney. Other kids who watched it, did it for entertainment, and for a laugh. For me, since pre school and kendergarten were very visual, Barney, actually filled in the gaps, and taught me that, even though I was blind, I still could do things. At the age of 8, I started playing games on an old XBox. The first game, that I remember playing at the time, after listening to someone, and practically going crazy at what the game could do, was Grand Theft Auto San Andreas. I was way too young to play it, but, I had been raised, hearing those cuss words. I did not ever say them, until a very long time later. I went to the Texas school for the blind for a summer program, and that is where I played my first audio game, met the person who would become my best friend, and met the girl who would become my first love, two years later. That person who would become my best friend, about 6 years after meeting him, is actually a member of this forum. I knew what computers were. What I did not know was that they could be used, with no help, by a blind person. I heard a kid, playing a game on the computer, and wondered how he did it. I asked him, and then, I was hooked. The game that I had played was a classic from a group that we believe is gone, due to the fact that after releasing 2 games, was never heard from, again. Grizly gulch was the first game that was meant for people like me, that I had played. I would not play another audio game, until I was 12. I did play a lot of mainstream games, in that time. When I was 9, I went to the school full time. The year after, the lady that I met, 2 years earlier, became my girlfriend until I was 13. I had discovered that with some extra software, I could fully use a computer. I played sonnic zoom, and decent into madness, all thanks to my tech teacher, at the time. When I was 13, I got my first laptop. I was over at a friends house. This friend is also on the forum. We were bored, and had wanted to play a game. I had taught Colton how to use a pc, with my own. We went onto google and searched for games for the blind. I found this forum, but really did not. I found the database of games, then later on, as I learned more, discovered this forum. I had been browsing the forum as a guest, for about 2 years. I finally decided to create an account. That was not all that had happened. Around the age of 9, I wanted to make audio movies. I would record parts of movies with a cassette recorder, and make my own little pointless audio files. Little did I know, that if I had a pc, and some sounds, I could be far more creative, and not have files that sounded, well, like a kid in a noisy house, recording snippets of movies. In that time, I had also gone through a very very hard time with my first step dad, who would fight with my mom, hit her, and he cussed a lot. I could hear them yelling and fighting, in their bedroom, or in the livingroom, almost every night. I sometimes recorded the stuff, to show to my uncle. Little did I know, I was breaking the law, by recording people without permission. Even if I did, do you think I would want to walk into a shouting and slapping match and ask if I could record it? There was only one good thing about this man. If my mom had not met him, I probably would not have played on that XBox, therefore most likely would not have known about games, and not have joined this forum. Because of the fact that I had been raised in that atmosphere, and had heard it for 10 years of my life, I was, and sometimes are very rude to people, even though I was one of the smartest people in my school. As Steve jobs said, You can not connect the dots, looking forward, you can only connect them looking back. Sorry that I did not put propper punctuation. My mac is in repare, and, for some odd reason, my bluetooth keyboard does not have an apostrophy key, for some odd reason. This aggressive attitude, combined with ADHD, autism, and Bipolar, have gotten me in the dog house, online, and offline. I have made some pretty long speeches, on here in order to get myself forgiven for my past mistakes. I realize, that even though 1 or 2 of them actually meant anything, I was just putting myself into hotter water. I was told, by my kendergarten teacher, some words that would save me at times, and put me in bad situations in others. Other people told me, basically the same thing, over the years. Son, learn your rights. Be a man, and stand up and fight for what you value. That advice, would get me what I wanted, at times, but when I took it too far, it did the opposite. My aggression, determination, and my obsession with facts, would get me grounded, countless times, it would turn people away, and, even in years to come, after I had learned the pc, get me banned from games, and even this forum. Along the lines of fighting for what I valued, and what I thought was fair, I made several attempts to evade bans from DMNB, and harass Danny. Danny and I were good friends at the beginning. I met him, through Severestormsteve, who was at the Sports Extravaganza. I did not know who he was, or that I had actually talked to him, on the forum, previously. This was around the time of the original Deathmatch game. Steve and I exchanged contact info, before I got on the bus with my school and headed back to my dorm. About half way through the trip, my mac was dead, I was bored, my phone had about half a charge, my apex had not yet been authorized to Bard, and that was the only device I had that had the ability to read books. Bard mobile was not out yet. Note, I was about 14, maybe 15 at the time. I say this, because I do not want to confuse anyone. Back to the essay. So, I was bored. I had just been playing GTA and listening to music when my mac died. I did not want to sleep, because I was not tired, and I was expecting a skype call from Steve. That call finally came. Steve was not the only person on the call. A man, who has such an identical story to mine, as far as gaming goes, and who would be the man I came to when I was sad, and also my idle, and my enemy, was on the call. That man was Danny, the man who brought me, as well as this forum, so much fun. We hit it off, and shared skype names. About 4 months later, just after Snow Race was out, we had a fight, that would have me blocked on his contact list. Eventually, he unblocked me. I had gone through my first wave of depression and feeling useless, which if you are in my skype, twitter, or actually read the stuff I put on this forum, you know what I start to do. When Danny unblocked me, the first time, I felt salvaged. I lost control of my excitement, and went on the first of many spam attacks against Danny, to get him to talk with me. At the time, I felt that Danny was the only person I could trust on the forum, because we played some of the same mainstream games, which I forgot to mintion in that section, and because we both came originally from the much larger vast of sighted gaming forums, into this one. I did not think that I was going to end up totally shunned from his friendship, in the months to come. I had been so excited, that I made a DecTalk skit that was supposed to be the announcement that TC studios would be joining Reality software, now known as Reality gaming. It was set in the theme of a banquet, at an NFB convention. At the beginning, Dannys TTS actor made the announcement of me joining his company. Then, it goes to a table, where Danny, me, and a few fans of his games sat. We were interviewed by an NFB member. Of course, this never happened, even though, ironically, Danny had talked about going to the convention, while we were talking about the things and people needed to make a game console for audio games. That was the last conversation we had, as true friends. After that, it was just me harassing him. The issues with me and DMNB, started before it was even released. I was so excited to see that an audio space rpg was coming. My unfortunate expectance of getting everything I wanted, as I had, in younger years would be one of the things that took me down a road of mistakes, and regret. I begged him for 2 days, to get to play the game, before it had been released. I do not know what made him send me the game. Maybe he wanted me to shut up. Maybe he realized that I was tired of being left out of things. Maybe he still had a small bit of friendship towards me, and he decided to let me try it. I think he was tired of me begging. Maybe if I had not begged, or even played the game, I would not have been banned from the forum, and I would not have lost a friend. Every time I see someone ask to be unbanned from a game, on the forum, I get a mixxed feeling of worry, and the need to laugh, because that never got me anywhere. If you read this far, I thank you. The reasons why I wrote this are listed below. This started as a simple story about my gaming life, and while writing, I got emotional and started thinking back. I wanted to get it off my chest, and tell about my life. I did a whole lot more stuff, to more than just Danny. I did not write about it, because it was already known. Just know that, the person that you hate, or dislike because of the past, could end up being your friend, in hard times. This is the end of most likely the longest post on the forum, but before I go, let me leave an original saying from me. Travel with success, you will know when the time is best. PS, My family started watching Catching Fire, at about the same time that I started typing. I did not finnish until about 5 minutes after the movie was over. I understand if this gets deleted, but, at least you now know most of my history that was not known. Good night, and I hope you all liked this.
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